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The Longest Journey
A new life
Created on 2005-12-02 00:08:06 (#8934314), last updated 2009-08-30
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Basic Info| Name: | c_laura |
|---|---|
| Birthdate: | 1984-08-23 |
| Location: | Tennessee, United States |
Bio09.22.08
Dear Live Journal Reader,
For over ten years I've struggled with obesity and the highs and lows that come from allowing your physical appearance dictate how you feel about yourself and how you imagine others perceive you. I've felt unloved and unlovable and I've considered myself to be the most desirable girl in the room. I've wondered what I've done to make no one love me and I've wondered what the hell is wrong with the rest of world. The sad thing is the longer it went on the worse it got. The roller coaster of doubt and self assurance buried itself deep in to my psyche until it became part of my spastic personality.
It has impacted my life in a myriad of ways from my professional career to my personal relationships. I’ve only just begun learning how much of my weight-loss journey won’t involve healthy eating and exercise, but rather a mental refurbishment. I’ve come to the conclusion that as I begin to shed the pounds through healthy diet and exercise I also need to figure out a way to soothe the hurt that I caused myself with the emotional roller coaster.
When I first began this journal over two years ago I never imagined that I would still be working on weight-loss, I figured I would be skinny, healthy, and happy by now. I also didn’t realize how important it was fix the emotional issues not just the scale. As such this journal was strictly reserved for information about my weight-loss process and only weight-loss. Now I know that won’t actually be enough to start me on a new road in life so I’m changing my journal parameters.
This journal is not only about me fixing both my problems with food and exercise, but also about fixing the internal parts of me that are broken. If this sounds interesting or familiar come in and read about my journey. If you understand what I’m saying...you feel it too or you were once in the same position I am in leave a comment or some support. However this is a difficult task and to me it is just as real and as important as going to a therapist to help me work through these issues (just less expensive) so please be respectful of my posts despite them being in a public forum.
Thank You,
C_Laura
Personal Data
START
Height: 5'3
Weight: 253
mood:resolved
Highest Weight:250 lbs
Lowest Weight: 160 lbs (five years ago)
GOAL: 135lbs
mood goal: happy
Dear Live Journal Reader,
For over ten years I've struggled with obesity and the highs and lows that come from allowing your physical appearance dictate how you feel about yourself and how you imagine others perceive you. I've felt unloved and unlovable and I've considered myself to be the most desirable girl in the room. I've wondered what I've done to make no one love me and I've wondered what the hell is wrong with the rest of world. The sad thing is the longer it went on the worse it got. The roller coaster of doubt and self assurance buried itself deep in to my psyche until it became part of my spastic personality.
It has impacted my life in a myriad of ways from my professional career to my personal relationships. I’ve only just begun learning how much of my weight-loss journey won’t involve healthy eating and exercise, but rather a mental refurbishment. I’ve come to the conclusion that as I begin to shed the pounds through healthy diet and exercise I also need to figure out a way to soothe the hurt that I caused myself with the emotional roller coaster.
When I first began this journal over two years ago I never imagined that I would still be working on weight-loss, I figured I would be skinny, healthy, and happy by now. I also didn’t realize how important it was fix the emotional issues not just the scale. As such this journal was strictly reserved for information about my weight-loss process and only weight-loss. Now I know that won’t actually be enough to start me on a new road in life so I’m changing my journal parameters.
This journal is not only about me fixing both my problems with food and exercise, but also about fixing the internal parts of me that are broken. If this sounds interesting or familiar come in and read about my journey. If you understand what I’m saying...you feel it too or you were once in the same position I am in leave a comment or some support. However this is a difficult task and to me it is just as real and as important as going to a therapist to help me work through these issues (just less expensive) so please be respectful of my posts despite them being in a public forum.
Thank You,
C_Laura
Personal Data
START
Height: 5'3
Weight: 253
mood:resolved
Highest Weight:250 lbs
Lowest Weight: 160 lbs (five years ago)
GOAL: 135lbs
mood goal: happy
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